Teacher: pray for the will to have a mind as such as this;
… These are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.
The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. 11 For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. 12 What we have received is not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may understand what God has freely given us. 13 This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, explaining spiritual realities with Spirit-taught words.[b] 14 The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit. 15 The person with the Spirit makes judgments about all things, but such a person is not subject to merely human judgments, 16 for,
“Who has known the mind of the Lord
so as to instruct him?”[c]
But we have the mind of Christ.
And then… What is the mind of Christ?…
Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, 2 then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. 3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, 4 not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.
5 In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
7 rather, he made himself nothing
by taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8 And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
by becoming obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
Pupil: I have brought in other elements like emotions, you are trying to give me practical wisdom (phronesis) in my sense of self and freedom to exercise my natural intelligence without being a slave to alien/foreign voices which are assailants of my native voice … The origins of these alien voices are born of moments of helplessness where I became very hurt, and where demons now would like to reign as masters of my mind’s captivity…they are competing and foreign voices that try to quell and that try to drown my native “sense”
which is guided by the light that shine from the first trees of Arda, in the Source that is deeper than the First Music…
I am being empowered by being able to be free in the present and to live my present in freedom by judging the root of how I am responding to my present and then aligning my present action to what I freely choose as being what I really want and also as being a disciple “in the light of truth”… This kind of initial detachment from my thoughts, as kind of gaze upon them and a conscious scrutiny, to fully seize them before acting… is something that has been made very clear by your teaching… I want to see where it takes me//
… Practically you have confidence in me and this makes me confident that I could actually work out what to do, when the wisdom of each situation arises… I can be much more objective about how I am responding to my present moment and even investigate why I am responding as such… This is new and exciting and gives me the capacity to be a commander of who I am becoming and I feel like I am finding a way that I could act with self-conscious dignity and authenticity and furthermore springing forth from a clarity of the dispositions that are causing me to act in each moment…
The condemning voices are not my voice, my own voice says several things natively… Firstly it says, I trust myself because I am free and because I have a conscience and because I am capable of owning my action. Secondly it says, I have a yearning and I wish to investigate it to the depths, because I believe that what I yearn for is not an illusion. Thirdly my voice says beauty will come from the beauty you will give … with all your freedom going forward… I can be the artist of my destiny in cooperation with God whose loves me.
The night is as bright as day. I hold will hold onto my unknowing with the tenderest dispositions I am capable of and with the deepest aspirations of my heart for love. I trust myself and cast out all alien voices, which to the depth of myself I rebuke as alien to my own good sense. I will be still and I will hope.
This is not even courage for me, this is simply like casting off a great burden of distorted vision and saying… “I am at home myself, because I trust myself and I trust the road and I trust the Destiny.”
It is part of who I am, to speak a lot to try and make sense and then after this freedom, the best parts appear gold in my heart and mind…
What you are proposing to me is an avenue out of slavery of the mind through an authentic personal appropriating of and ownership of the latent dispositions that antecede action… And I am going to own them naturally and gently and with a disposition of trust and hope casting out with conviction all that is foreign to me.
I am reminded of Theoden in Jackson’s film, once he has been exorcised he regains his natural regal disposition… “The last time I looked it was Theoden not Aragorn who was King of Rohan”… His regal disposition is the manner in which he calculates his thought, trusts the channels in which it flows, seizes the sense in his own magnanimity and then acts decisively.
I have been acting, acting, acting as a defence mechanism and almost in some cases there has been a kind of insanity in the circular reasoning, no escape
… Now there is personal artistry of self that is possible…
I feel like I could act very beautifully in response to knowing Jesus crucified too, as an illumination of the depths of forgiveness and unconditional love possible and yet that is a Grace I have to beg for, so as to militate against the reality of the forces that evil rages upon our common language of love …
You confidence in my ability to think, discern and act beautifully has touched me.
Whilst I do not know what will happen next, I will try to welcome the future as what my friends who sung at the Conference in gaelic call…”the nurturing tenderness of a mother with child at her breast.”
I am capable of gentleness and magnanimity…I am capable. I will be gentle and free and I will not cast away my scepter or my crown
I am most certainly not a monster, I can do what is right as I see it, and in my conscience and I will love God.
Bringing in the hurt Christ takes it to a new level too, as there is an energy beyond me that can give force to my kindest intuitions.
I guard the garden and will return to sleep. Whilst I do not know yet what to do next, I will not be angry and refuse that kind of slavery as foreign to my native intelligence. I also will continue to pray because it illumines me to hope for things yet unseen and gives my mind a flavour of the territory I am yearning for.
I have a cartoon picture of Newman dressed in his ordinary gentleman clothes from a Time magazine cartoon as the first thing I see in the morning when I leave my room for work… Because I desire to be able to enjoy ordinary life like him and in my own natural way and deeply native way.
And I know I will, I trust my native self… I am curious to see how delightful things can be through, with and in this new understanding.”